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rlm@2 1 Tomoyo's Hong Kong Visit
rlm@2 2 Day 2
rlm@2 3 Shopping in the City
rlm@2 4
rlm@2 5
rlm@2 6 I.
rlm@2 7 Sakura woke with a start, nearly tumbling out of bed. It was still
rlm@2 8 dark outside, with Sayoran already gone. And Tomoyo? She felt a
rlm@2 9 sudden pang of disbelief that her dearest friend was really here in
rlm@2 10 the same house. Jumping out of bed she threw on her green robe and
rlm@2 11 padded down the hallway to the door of the guest room. There she
rlm@2 12 hesitated, worrying about knocking so early. The night before they
rlm@2 13 talked until well past midnight, remembering old friends, family, and
rlm@2 14 teachers, laughingly reliving the dances, picnics, and all the
rlm@2 15 wonders and adventures of their childhood years. After parting,
rlm@2 16 Sakura found she was simply too excited to sleep and crept to the
rlm@2 17 kitchen for tea. On her way she found Tomoyo equally awake, and the
rlm@2 18 two giggled like guilty schoolgirls at a slumber party. Over Oolong
rlm@2 19 tea they again talked for hours before giving in to exhaustion and
rlm@2 20 sleep. Surely she’s not awake after all that, Sakura thought. But the
rlm@2 21 urge to see that her friend was actually here was overwhelming, and
rlm@2 22 she tapped lightly on the mahogany door. A quick rustle and a
rlm@2 23 whispery voice told her that Tomoyo was already up, too,
rlm@2 24
rlm@2 25 “Yes, who is it?”
rlm@2 26
rlm@2 27 She whispered back, “Ohayo, Tomoyo-chan, it’s me, Sakura.”
rlm@2 28
rlm@2 29 The door swung open, revealing the beaming face of Tomoyo. She
rlm@2 30 ushered the auburn-haired woman in with barely suppressed excitement.
rlm@2 31
rlm@2 32 “Ohayo, Sakura-chan. You’re up early.”
rlm@2 33
rlm@2 34 Sakura smiled as she sat on a red plush pillow and replied, “I guess
rlm@2 35 I’m used to waking up for work. And I guess I’m sort of excited that
rlm@2 36 you’re here, too.” Knowing that Tomoyo was in the same house, she
rlm@2 37 couldn’t imagine being anywhere other than with her. Glancing at the
rlm@2 38 dark-haired woman who regarded her with gentle eyes, Sakura shivered
rlm@2 39 sweetly. She had missed her beautiful friend so much that just seeing
rlm@2 40 her seemed a miracle. Looking up, the first rays of dawn glinted
rlm@2 41 through the garden window, crowning Tomoyo with a golden halo of
rlm@2 42 light. Sakura smiled at this beatific vision and thought: like an
rlm@2 43 angel. Just like an angel. Tomoyo tilted her head quizzically and
rlm@2 44 smiled back. The auburn-haired woman could only grin, silently
rlm@2 45 laughing with pure joy. She hadn’t been this happy since, since when?
rlm@2 46 Since we were last together, she thought with a start. Not the
rlm@2 47 wedding, or the honeymoon, or life in Hong Kong, not any of it; I
rlm@2 48 haven’t felt like this since I was with her. Somehow this thought was
rlm@2 49 disturbing, and she quickly stood up as if shaken from a dream. But
rlm@2 50 the shadow passed as quickly as it had come, and Sakura clapped her
rlm@2 51 hands together and spoke in a voice bursting with excitement,
rlm@2 52
rlm@2 53 “Sayoran-chan had to go to work today, and said he was sorry that he
rlm@2 54 couldn’t join us. But I made him write an itinerary of where to go.
rlm@2 55 Do you want to get ready now?”
rlm@2 56
rlm@2 57 Tomoyo nodded and rose as Sakura bolted out the door yelling, “I’ll
rlm@2 58 be ready in a minute!” The dark-haired girl closed her eyes tightly
rlm@2 59 and clasped her hands together. The months of loneliness that haunted
rlm@2 60 her since the wedding seemed like a life belonging to someone else.
rlm@2 61 With a deep breath she steadied herself, heart racing wildly from
rlm@2 62 being so deliriously close to her secret love. Fighting back tears
rlm@2 63 she smiled and thought, I could live a hundred years alone to be with
rlm@2 64 her for just a single day. Opening the heavy cedar chest to pick out
rlm@2 65 a dress, she was overcome by the scent of a thousand memories.
rlm@2 66
rlm@2 67 II.
rlm@2 68 Sakura felt a delightfully cool breeze as she leaned against the
rlm@2 69 railing of the Wan Chai ferry. The little boat was packed with
rlm@2 70 commuters traveling from the New Territories to Hong Kong, but the
rlm@2 71 two women had arrived early and enjoyed an unrestricted view of the
rlm@2 72 passing islands. The hem of Tomoyo’s lavender skirt fluttered in the
rlm@2 73 wind as she scanned the junks and boats that dotted the water. Sakura
rlm@2 74 touched her, and pointed out a sea bird circling above them. Tomoyo
rlm@2 75 blushed as the delicate fingers lightly graced her shoulder. She
rlm@2 76 gazed at her friend adoringly, hand resting on one cheek as she
rlm@2 77 sighed deeply. Whether it was birds in the sky, or baking a cake, or
rlm@2 78 falling in love, Sakura’s enthusiasm gushed forth in a sparkling
rlm@2 79 flood of innocent excitement. Tomoyo struggled to contain her
rlm@2 80 emotions lest the beautiful woman notice. It was all she could do to
rlm@2 81 keep from passionately hugging Sakura right there on the boat.
rlm@2 82 Fascinated by the turning gulls, Sakura let go of Tomoyo's shoulder
rlm@2 83 and sought her hand. Tomoyo blushed again as their fingers delicately
rlm@2 84 interlaced. Sakura squeezed gently, as if for reassurance that her
rlm@2 85 friend was truly there. Tomoyo drew a quick breath, felt her
rlm@2 86 heartbeat quicken, and softly squeezed back. Though she had learned
rlm@2 87 that it was customary in Hong Kong for female friends to hold hands,
rlm@2 88 the girl’s touch was nearly overwhelming. As the ferry neared the
rlm@2 89 shore and the buildings of the Convention Center loomed large, Sakura
rlm@2 90 turned and exclaimed,
rlm@2 91
rlm@2 92 "Sayoran-chan says the best shopping in the city is the Causeway.
rlm@2 93 I've only been there once. They even have Japanese department stores
rlm@2 94 just like home, but he said there are better bargains on the back
rlm@2 95 streets."
rlm@2 96
rlm@2 97 Tomoyo nodded and smiled, and heard a loud clang as the gangway
rlm@2 98 dropped to the dock. The two women were swept along with the mass of
rlm@2 99 people as the ferry emptied out. Holding a map in one hand and Tomoyo
rlm@2 100 with the other, Sakura plowed forward through the throng. After a
rlm@2 101 brief walk down Flemming Drive they took an immaculate subway and got
rlm@2 102 off by the Daimaru department store. Walking along Great George
rlm@2 103 Street, Tomoyo was dazzled by the variety of stores and goods for
rlm@2 104 sale. It was like Tokyo, only even more dense and crowded. Finally,
rlm@2 105 Sakura suggested they enter the Matsuzakaya, which was just opening
rlm@2 106 for business.
rlm@2 107
rlm@2 108 They passed the rows of impeccably dressed store employees bowing
rlm@2 109 for their first customers. The massive department store was much like
rlm@2 110 it's Japanese counterpart, though stocked with local Chinese goods
rlm@2 111 that would have seemed oddly out of place back home. Wending their
rlm@2 112 way through the first floor they came to a display of the fall
rlm@2 113 fashion line. There they saw scarves, hats, blouses and dresses in
rlm@2 114 subdued earth tones and rich, dark greens. Tomoyo fancied a long,
rlm@2 115 chiffon, copper-russet dress, while a pleated, flowing, pumpkin-
rlm@2 116 colored skirt entranced Sakura. Impulsively, the auburn-haired woman
rlm@2 117 slipped into a changing room to try it on. Upon emerging she sweat
rlm@2 118 dropped as Tomoyo gleefully met her with the video camera. But
rlm@2 119 somehow, despite the embarrassment, it secretly thrilled her to be
rlm@2 120 filmed once again. Tomoyo's love was effusive, and came out in so
rlm@2 121 many curious little ways: the costumes, the camera, and the funny
rlm@2 122 little remarks. Sakura realized how painfully she missed her friend's
rlm@2 123 eccentricities, these odd little tokens of her affection. Of course,
rlm@2 124 Sayoran loved her, too, in his way. And so did her father, and
rlm@2 125 brother. But somehow, she felt herself a treasured part of Tomoyo's
rlm@2 126 life, a unique receptacle of the pale woman’s effusive love. The girl
rlm@2 127 had always made her feel special, filling her with a confidence and
rlm@2 128 courage that she otherwise lacked. Holding the hem of the skirt she
rlm@2 129 twirled like a dancer, delighting Tomoyo and earning stares from the
rlm@2 130 other customers. Stopping in mid-pirouette, she caught her breath and
rlm@2 131 gazed at the camera and her dear friend behind it. She smiled,
rlm@2 132 curtseyed, and then quickly dashed into the changing room. For some
rlm@2 133 reason she was crying. Sitting on the little bench and dabbing her
rlm@2 134 eyes with the skirt, she shook her head in bewilderment.
rlm@2 135
rlm@2 136 "Baka, why are you crying?” she thought. "Because, because I don't
rlm@2 137 feel like this with anyone else. Because I'm never this happy unless
rlm@2 138 I'm with her. Because I can only be with her for a few more days, and
rlm@2 139 then she'll be gone again". Sakura sat with her fists clenched, tears
rlm@2 140 trickling down her cheeks. She wiped them away, desperately
rlm@2 141 struggling to regain her composure. She heard a soft voice outside
rlm@2 142 the door, tinged with concern,
rlm@2 143
rlm@2 144 "Sakura-chan, are you all right?"
rlm@2 145
rlm@2 146 "Hai", she gasped out, breathing raggedly, "I'll be out in just a
rlm@2 147 minute."
rlm@2 148
rlm@2 149 Sakura emerged with a smile, easing the worry on Tomoyo's pale face.
rlm@2 150 The Mistress of the Cards fiddled with the price tag on the skirt,
rlm@2 151 looked at the money in her handbag, and then stared again at the
rlm@2 152 price. Finally, she looked at Tomoyo uncertainly. Her companion
rlm@2 153 smiled and said, "It looks very pretty on Sakura-chan". That was good
rlm@2 154 enough, and a saleslady was soon wrapping the purchase into a tidy,
rlm@2 155 tied up bundle.
rlm@2 156
rlm@2 157 After buying the skirt, the two perused the dishes and china sets.
rlm@2 158 They were entranced by the exquisitely beautiful Haviland
rlm@2 159 collections, with Sakura declaring the strawberry pattern her
rlm@2 160 favorite, while Tomoyo favored a serving tray with little fishes
rlm@2 161 playing around the rims. Sakura noticed a crowd gathering, and with
rlm@2 162 Tomoyo in tow went to see what was going on. By the bridal section a
rlm@2 163 fashion show had begun, featuring Western and Chinese wedding
rlm@2 164 dresses. Sakura oohh-ed and ahh-ed at the dazzling display of satin
rlm@2 165 and lace. The traditional red and gold brocade of a Chinese costume
rlm@2 166 was exotically beautiful, and she glanced over to see Tomoyo's
rlm@2 167 reaction. The lavender-haired was smiling, but it was an odd, frozen
rlm@2 168 smile, as if she wore it to hold back some secret distress. Sakura
rlm@2 169 felt a sudden stab of pain in her chest as she remembered Tomoyo's
rlm@2 170 unspoken love for her special person, and the heartbreaking line in
rlm@2 171 one of her letters, "It doesn't matter if I have a wedding." She
rlm@2 172 gripped Tomoyo's hand tightly and whispered, "Let's go," practically
rlm@2 173 yanking her friend away. Sakura avoided the startled woman's face,
rlm@2 174 for fear those glistening blue eyes might start her crying all over
rlm@2 175 again. She tugged Tomoyo along, nearly running out of the store and
rlm@2 176 into the mid-day heat. Finally, Sakura paused in the shade of a
rlm@2 177 building and looked at Tomoyo, who was breathless but smiling. Sakura
rlm@2 178 smiled, too, and asked,
rlm@2 179
rlm@2 180 “Are you hungry? Sayoran-chan says there’s a great noodle restaurant
rlm@2 181 not far from here, the Dai Pai Dong.”
rlm@2 182
rlm@2 183 Tomoyo smiled and replied, “That would be nice. I love noodles. ”
rlm@2 184
rlm@2 185 Walking hand in hand down Jardine's Bazaar, the women threaded their
rlm@2 186 way past street merchants and hawkers with every imaginable ware for
rlm@2 187 sale. There were booths laden with jade and gold, silks and luxurious
rlm@2 188 fabrics, and odd potions and medicinals. Finally they worked their
rlm@2 189 way to the Night Market and, between Tomoyo’s English and Sakura’s
rlm@2 190 Chinese, were seated in a more-or-less quiet table in a darkened
rlm@2 191 corner. After pointing out their orders on a tray of plastic replicas
rlm@2 192 of the daily specials, the two friends chatted about the beautiful
rlm@2 193 clothing and jewelry they had seen, and all the places they would go
rlm@2 194 on Sayoran’s little list. When the noodles arrived they were
rlm@2 195 surprised at the bounteous feast, and knew they could never finish.
rlm@2 196 Once the dishes were cleared, Sakura poured the tea and pondered what
rlm@2 197 to say. Tomoyo looked at her and sensed that something was amiss. Her
rlm@2 198 gentle smile, silently reassuring, urged the reticent brunette to
rlm@2 199 speak. Finally, Sakura burst out in an agitated voice,
rlm@2 200
rlm@2 201 “Tomoyo-chan, do you think you can love someone besides your one,
rlm@2 202 True Love?”
rlm@2 203
rlm@2 204 Tomoyo was startled by the woman’s sudden fervor. She looked down at
rlm@2 205 the clear, pale green liquid that billowed in her little teacup.
rlm@2 206 Finally she looked at Sakura, saw the urgency of her expression, and
rlm@2 207 asked in as matter-a-fact a voice as she could manage,
rlm@2 208
rlm@2 209 “Sakura-chan, I’m not quite sure what you mean. Surely a person
rlm@2 210 would still love their parents, and their brothers and sisters, even
rlm@2 211 if they had found their one, True Love.”
rlm@2 212
rlm@2 213 Sakura frowned and looked at the table, slowly shaking her head,
rlm@2 214 searching for the right words,
rlm@2 215
rlm@2 216 “I know that…that you would still love your family, but…Tomoyo-chan,
rlm@2 217 you love your special person very much, don’t you?”
rlm@2 218
rlm@2 219 Tomoyo felt her thudding heart as she gazed at Sakura’s beautiful
rlm@2 220 face. If only she could speak her true feelings, just once! Instead,
rlm@2 221 she smiled and spoke in a clear, musical voice,
rlm@2 222
rlm@2 223 “I love them with all my heart, and all my life.”
rlm@2 224
rlm@2 225 Sakura stared, wild emotions tearing at her self-control. In a
rlm@2 226 halting voice she whispered,
rlm@2 227
rlm@2 228 “Tomoyo-chan, could you….could you ever love anybody else?”
rlm@2 229
rlm@2 230 Tomoyo looked at her friend and desperately struggled to maintain
rlm@2 231 her mask. Why was she asking this? What could she mean? Why is she
rlm@2 232 doing this? Her mind raced through all the possibilities: she wants
rlm@2 233 me to meet someone, she wants to help me somehow. Tomoyo wished she
rlm@2 234 had never come, that she were back with Sonomi in the far away
rlm@2 235 mountains. Or even that Sakura had just forgotten all about her,
rlm@2 236 forever. But that thought stung, and brought her to the verge of
rlm@2 237 tears. Forcing a smile to hide her fraying heart, Tomoyo spoke
rlm@2 238 truthfully, for she was too shaken to lie,
rlm@2 239
rlm@2 240 “Sakura-chan, I could never, ever love anyone but my special person.”
rlm@2 241
rlm@2 242 Crestfallen, Sakura sank back into her chair. Her smile was shaky,
rlm@2 243 but sincere. Breathing deeply, she said,
rlm@2 244
rlm@2 245 “ I guess I knew that already.” She glanced away, staring at the
rlm@2 246 restaurant’s red carpet as if it held all the great secrets of the
rlm@2 247 world. “I don’t even know why I was asking.” With teary eyes she
rlm@2 248 gazed at Tomoyo and took both her hands. “Your special person is so
rlm@2 249 very lucky to have your love. I only wish they knew.”
rlm@2 250
rlm@2 251 Tomoyo felt the soft, warm hands tenderly holding her own. She
rlm@2 252 closed her eyes tightly, but darkness brought no relief. Sadly she
rlm@2 253 thought to herself, “I wish you knew too, Sakura-chan. But I can’t
rlm@2 254 ever let you know.”
rlm@2 255
rlm@2 256 III.
rlm@2 257 The westering sun lit up the city in a golden glow as the electric
rlm@2 258 tram slowly climbed the heights of Victoria Peak. In a strange
rlm@2 259 transition, the dense, urban world gave way to a mountainous jungle.
rlm@2 260 Only the occasional mansion dotted the landscape as the little tram
rlm@2 261 pulled it's way ever higher. The two women were burdened with bags
rlm@2 262 and packages, but Sakura was determined to see the sunset that
rlm@2 263 Sayoran called, "the most beautiful sight in all of Hong Kong." She
rlm@2 264 knew they could stop off at the Li mansion, but that would cost
rlm@2 265 precious time. The Peak was the highest point in the area, and
rlm@2 266 overlooked the city and all the little islands of the bay. When they
rlm@2 267 finally reached the top, they were greeted by still more stores,
rlm@2 268 museums, and restaurants. Sakura's face lit up when she saw a set of
rlm@2 269 rental lockers, which they used to store the day's accumulation of
rlm@2 270 bargains. Then, Sakura took out her husband's crudely drawn map and
rlm@2 271 stared at it in puzzlement.
rlm@2 272
rlm@2 273 "He's such an awful map maker," she frowned. Tomoyo giggled and said,
rlm@2 274
rlm@2 275 "The streets are very well marked, not like back home. I guess maps
rlm@2 276 aren't as necessary here."
rlm@2 277
rlm@2 278 "Mmmmm," Sakura replied distractedly. Finally, pointing to the west
rlm@2 279 in triumph she exclaimed, "There. That's the way. I think." Sakura
rlm@2 280 strode forward into the great unknown, and Tomoyo smilingly followed.
rlm@2 281
rlm@2 282 The path was twisty, and the climb somewhat steep. The Peak rose
rlm@2 283 almost 2,000 feet from sea level, and was covered in thick,
rlm@2 284 subtropical foliage, broken only by parks, gardens, and commercial
rlm@2 285 buildings at the top. The two stopped at a bench to catch their
rlm@2 286 breath, but Tomoyo sensed her friend's impatience, and said they
rlm@2 287 should press on before the sun could set. Sakura happily agreed, and
rlm@2 288 the pair again began to climb. The pale woman marveled at her
rlm@2 289 friend's stamina, her sure-footed ease on the difficult trail. While
rlm@2 290 walking, Tomoyo thought about the day, the thousand treasured moments
rlm@2 291 spent with Sakura. It was a blessing beyond hope to be with her, to
rlm@2 292 see her new life and happiness first hand. Though exhausted from the
rlm@2 293 vigorous climb, Tomoyo found new energy in just being with her
rlm@2 294 beloved. Suddenly the leaves and trees gave way, and the two women
rlm@2 295 stood in awe at the view of the city below them. The great
rlm@2 296 skyscrapers of Central were like little models below, the golden
rlm@2 297 yellow sunlight catching their sharp angles for the last time in the
rlm@2 298 day. The great city of commerce was slowly changing into a mecca of
rlm@2 299 entertainment as evening approached. Sakura took Tomoyo's hand and
rlm@2 300 spoke earnestly,
rlm@2 301
rlm@2 302 "Sayoran-chan said we should see the sunset over Lamma Island, and
rlm@2 303 then catch the city at night." Tomoyo nodded, and the two plunged
rlm@2 304 back on the path into the green world of trees and vines. The trail
rlm@2 305 was steeper now, but cooler as shade darkened their way. Sakura was
rlm@2 306 in her determined mode, and nothing would keep her from the sunset.
rlm@2 307 When her mind was set like this, she was almost a little scary.
rlm@2 308 Tomoyo was secretly thankful that she seemed to have given up her
rlm@2 309 quest to discover the identity of her True Love. Struggling up a
rlm@2 310 broken part of the trail, Tomoyo knew that in the end all her masks
rlm@2 311 would avail her nothing if Sakura truly wanted to know. At times, she
rlm@2 312 thought it might be better if they parted forever, lest the Mistress
rlm@2 313 of the Cards find that she herself was at the center of Tomoyo's
rlm@2 314 heart. That would be tragic for both of them, which was why this
rlm@2 315 might be the last time they would be together. If I drop out of her
rlm@2 316 life she'll forget about me and still have all the memories, Tomoyo
rlm@2 317 resolved wistfully. But how could I possibly do such a thing? How
rlm@2 318 could I live without hope of ever seeing her again? She knew the
rlm@2 319 answer already: because it would make her happy. And that was worth
rlm@2 320 any pain, no matter how long, or how cruel. Tomoyo was breathing
rlm@2 321 hard, from the climb as well as her secret thoughts, when suddenly
rlm@2 322 they stopped.
rlm@2 323
rlm@2 324 The sun was just beginning to set. The shredded clouds hung on the
rlm@2 325 horizon, pink and orange in the fading light. Lamma Island shone like
rlm@2 326 an emerald on fire, wrapped in a golden glow. The two women,
rlm@2 327 exhausted from the vigorous pace of the climb, plopped onto the
rlm@2 328 grass, still hand in hand. A great cruise ship slipped out of the
rlm@2 329 harbor and blasted a mournful farewell that rose all the way to the
rlm@2 330 top of the Peak. The pair sat entranced as the sun painted the world
rlm@2 331 in a riot of red and purple color. Darkness came slowly, soft, sweet
rlm@2 332 and tender. Sakura pointed out the first star high in the sky, and
rlm@2 333 closed her eyes to make a silent wish. Tomoyo saw the waxing moon;
rlm@2 334 nearly full now, nestled in black velvet like some luscious tropical
rlm@2 335 fruit.
rlm@2 336
rlm@2 337 She gazed at Sakura, her fairy-tale face touched by the moonlight.
rlm@2 338 She's like the Lunar Princess come to earth, Tomoyo thought. She
rlm@2 339 can't stay with me, and my heart will long for her all my days. But
rlm@2 340 this moment will be memory, a comfort and a solace to turn away the
rlm@2 341 pain. Sakura's dark lashes fluttered as she opened her eyes. Her wish
rlm@2 342 complete, she smiled sweetly at her dark-haired friend. Her green
rlm@2 343 eyes shone like far away stars, and Tomoyo felt her heart shudder and
rlm@2 344 break. Wracked by a flood of joy and sadness, Tomoyo let her mask go
rlm@2 345 and laid her head on Sakura's shoulder. The lavender hair tumbled
rlm@2 346 down in a luminous cascade, and her soft body cuddled against her
rlm@2 347 beloved friend. Sakura felt a wave of longing, her heart buoyed by
rlm@2 348 the magical presence of Tomoyo. She reached out and encircled the
rlm@2 349 woman with her arm, pulling her closer. High above, the stars wheeled
rlm@2 350 their way through the endless dark, but Tomoyo and Sakura were silent
rlm@2 351 and still. All that night the two sat side-by-side, nestled in
rlm@2 352 starlight and moon glow, like a statue of lovers from long ago.
rlm@2 353
rlm@2 354