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1 The Biggest Choice of My life
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2 By The Blue Esper
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4 Authors note: I just wrote this story as a spur of the moment and it is
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5 also my first story, sned all falmes compliments, etc to
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6 blue_sonnet@animefan.co.uk
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7
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8 There she is, just standing there, radiating in a beauty. Her soft,
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9 pink hair flowing in the wind as she gently runs down the hill to try and
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10 catch her hat. This scene before me reminds me of when we met, only
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11 things are very different now, though. I gently place my hand in my
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12 pocket for reassurance as to what I was about to do, feeling the velvet-
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13 covered box within my fingers I breathe gently. Slowly standing up, I
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14 leave the basket and picnic mat we placed and run off to catch the hat
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15 she just can't reach. Gently reaching, our hands make contact with each
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16 other instead of the summer hat; we both just give a little giggle at
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17 this motion, we both being what we are now, my beautiful princess and I.
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18 Again a reach for the hat and pass it to my friend, wait no lover is more
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19 appropriate. I gently reach for her hat again and pull it from its hold
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20 in the breeze. Brining it down to her face and slowly placing it on her
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21 head, waiting for her to lift her face and allow me to gaze at her beauty.
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22 "Odango-chan" I gently gasp as she does as I wish, just gazing into each
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23 others eyes, I wonder, How did I ever receive such beautiful girl, no
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24 woman. We take each other's hand and slowly walk back up the hill to our
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25 picnic spot, we were no longer just 'good-friends' and I was going to do
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26 something that would affect us both. Gently guiding her down into her
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27 seating spot, I place myself next to her. I take her hand, just gazing
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28 into her beautiful eyes; I gently reach into the pocket, which contained
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29 the velvet box. Brining it out and moving it to her face, I try to speak,
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30 but my voice just wouldn't follow. I try again and it doesn't follow
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31 suite, she doesn't deserve someone this nervous, I think as I let go of
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32 her hand and turn away. "What's wrong?" She says, in a gentle voice
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33 almost killing me, I turn back around and try to speak to her, but can't.
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34 Maybe everyone who takes this step is nervous, I don't really know, I
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35 never really had someone to go to in my time of need, except to woman
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36 before me, yet I wasn't able to turn to her about this. I stand up and
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37 say the only thing I could, "I'm sorry, but I don't deserve someone as
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38 good as you", I feel my stomach turn as I spoke, I run away from her, how
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39 could I do this to her? I turn back to look at her once more, only to
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40 see what I had done to her, why was I doing this?
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41
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42 Darkness, that's all I was good for, staring at my ceiling in my
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43 bedroom. I remember back then, no one expecting Chibi-Usa would choose
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44 me over Helios, she had two lovers dearly wanting to be with her for all
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45 eternity and she chose me, now I have just destroyed all that we had.
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46 Now that I think, maybe she should have chosen Helios, he was a prince
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47 and would never be this nervous. I fear what people will say, even worse,
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48 how they will treat me now. I hear a gentle sound on the door to my room,
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49 not wanting to see anyone I just turn over. But maybe I should have
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50 locked my door, as Haruka-papa walks into the room, followed by Michiru-
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51 mama and Setsuna, who really scares me, is Setsuna though. I have always
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52 known Setsuna thought of Chibi-Usa as a daughter as she was a part of
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53 Mamoru and Setsuna loved Endymion before, but new it was never possible,
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54 so maybe she'll understand what I am going through. "What is the matter
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55 Hime-chan?" Oh like you don't know, I think as I'm asked a question I
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56 cannot answer. I just lie there, motionless, looking away from the three
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57 who entered my room. Suddenly there is more weight applied to the
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58 opposite side of the bed, I don't want to look, yet I want to know whom
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59 it is? "Hotaru, please tell us what happened between you and Small Lady"
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60 She speaks gently, rubbing my shoulder. I quickly motion for her to move
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61 her hand by pushing it from me, she wanted to know why, but I couldn't
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62 tell her, because I desired the same answer. The weight lifted from my
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63 bed and all I heard afterwards was my door open and close again. What
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64 have I done with my life? Have I ruined everything I had?
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65
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66 Three days have passed, and I finally have the courage to leave my
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67 room, gently walking down the steps, awaiting another joke from Haruka-
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68 papa. But I reached the bottom of the steps and all I heard was silence,
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69 maybe they didn't care about me anymore? No that is silly, as just as I
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70 made a step into the living room Setsuna-mama made a grab for me, holding
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71 me tight in her grasp. "Hime-chan, we need to talk" she says to me,
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72 causing me to feel gut wrenched, wishing I never left my room, "Don't
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73 worry, I felt we should be alone for this and so I asked Haruka and
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74 Michiru to leave for the moment". She gently guides me into the kitchen,
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75 as it was more quite there. Just sitting down, I wait for the inevitable
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76 question Setsuna is going to ask me. "So, how is your homework, keeping
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77 up in class lately?" Her question confuses me, but from the nervousness
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78 I had, all I can do is giggle. I look at Setsuna-mama, gently smile down
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79 at me; I know she is the senshi of time and knows what has happened, so I
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80 know she is only trying to help. "I haven't been to school for a while"
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81 I reply to her 'question', I really want to tell someone, but I can't, it
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82 was like, when I tried to... "Why's that? What kept you from going to
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83 school?" She asks me. Suddenly I feel a full urge of strength suddenly
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84 build up within me at what I realised. "It's because, I tried to tell
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85 Odango-chan something, but couldn't and I felt, I felt...I've got to go!"
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86 I then knew what I had to do; I slowly stand up and run to the front door,
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87 looking back at Setsuna, seeing a smile on her face, showing me that I am
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88 doing the right thing. I leave the house bound for my next destination,
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89 a place where everything is almost eternal.
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90
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91 "Taru-chan?" I see the pink haired girl before me, tears welling up
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92 in her eyes, at this moment I believe nothing can stand in my way of what
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93 I am to do, for both of us. I slowly walk up to her, the whole world
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94 seeming to get warmer as every step I make puts me closer to her.
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95 Stopping just a few feet away from her, I see her more clearly, her
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96 beautiful face now stained with the tears I gave her, her appearance,
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97 once exquisite and perfect, now a wreck and a mess. I lower my face in
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98 shame, "Chibi-Usa, I apologise for what I have done to you, you mean
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99 everything to me, I didn't want to hurt you, I...I" I lift my face to see
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100 hers, a confused look on her face, "I love you" I say, her face now
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101 lightening at my words, seeing her reaction, I want to be by her side
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102 even more now. Without consciously acting I suddenly start racing to
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103 reach her, she doing the same in kind, and within a moment we finally
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104 reach other and embrace. 'I'm sorry' is all I can say to her. After a
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105 while of gazing at each other, Chibi-Usa asks me 'the question' I was
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106 dreading anyone to ask me, "What happened?" I slowly take her hand into
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107 mine and gaze into her eyes again, "I was going to ask you something, but
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108 I couldn't and I misinterpreted my feelings" I look away from her because
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109 of what I had said, finally admitting what I had kept trapped inside.
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110 "Well, what were you going to ask?" Her voice, cheerful and fluent,
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111 showing that must have forgiven me, I am so lucky to have her. Looking
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112 at her, the gleam in her face, I knew the perfect time had came up again,
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113 reaching in my pocket for the box I had never removed, I take it and out
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114 hold it to her, my mouth dry and a feeling of nervousness all over me, I
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115 open my mouth, "Chibi-Usa, I love you so much and after everything we
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116 have been through, I have only one thing to say." I open the lid of the
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117 box to expose the silver ring, with gently golden crescent moons dancing
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118 all over it and an amethyst stone in the top, to show that I feel perfect
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119 when she is all around me. "Will you marry me?" I stand there just
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120 looking at her, looking at her turn her face from me. "Taru-chan, I love
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121 you to, but..." Than was probably the worst hit I had ever received in my
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122 life, the 'but' she gave me spiralled around my head, maybe she didn't
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123 love me as much as I wished. "I wanted to propose to you, YES I WILL
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124 MARRY YOU" My world was rocked from side to side at her words, a HUGE
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125 weight lifted from my chest, allowing me to breath again. I gently take
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126 the ring from its box, to place it on her finger, but she quickly removes
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127 her hand from my hold. "Wait" she says to me, as she also takes out a
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128 box, opening it to reveal a gold ring, with a joint crescent moon and the
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129 symbol of Saturn entwined. "Will you marry me?" all I can do is laugh at
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130 this moment, she DID feel the same way about me, I answer the only way I
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131 can, "YES", we both gently exchange our rings, and hug each other softly
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132 and passionately. "This will be a shock to everyone, wont it, my Odago-
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133 chan" I say, putting an emphasis on 'my'. "No, more crazy things have
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134 happened, it's not like people won't have expected it anyway" she says
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135 gazing into my eyes, I gently place my hand on top of hers, allowing out
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136 rings to be seen side by side. "Well, I don't care what anyone says, as
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137 long as I'm with you".
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